People always say "If you hate your job, then quit!"  I would love to live in their world.  I have to sacrifice my hopes and my dreams a lot of times so that I can deal with my responsibilities.  I have to work a job where I am underappreciated and overworked so that I can pay my internet bill and write journals about how sucky my job is...that's just life!  So I have to wait until I have all of my responsibilities out of the way before I can work on a picture that I've been dying to finish!  My dreams come second to the harsh reality that is life!  I've come to terms with it and I still have my hopes and dreams waiting in the wings...but they've all become secondary.  I learned recently that you have to be ready to be happy in order to accept happiness.  Life gets in the way sometimes...thats all.